Losing

Remember when I wrote about starting to lose weight? And how I hate exercise? Well, just writing that I hated exercise was enough motivation for me to start exercising the very next day. I’m now doing some sort of exercising 5-7 days a week. Typically, 6 or 7. Even if it’s only 15 minutes.  I’m using workout videos at home and sometimes going to our dinky gym in our apartment complex. I don’t love it, but it’s not as much of a chore and really become a part of my routine. Someday soon, my schedule will change, as my temporary employment comes to a close. But until then, I’m moving forward with what’s working. I’ll figure it out later.

And so far? I’ve lost 29.2 pounds.

My Weight History

I’ve never been able to stick with it enough to see any more than a 5 pound loss. I think it’s impatience. But I’ve been able to push past that. The weeks are going by much faster. If you look at the graph, you can see my progress in a visual way (of course, I’m not going to let you see my weight even now!). You can see my losses, plateaus, and gains. The times that were most demotivating were the weeks where I’d only lose like .2 pounds. They were worse than gaining or plateauing for some reason.

I started to change my habits in September. I weighed myself and I was about 17 pounds more than I’d ever weighed in my life. And I didn’t want that for my future, because it was likely going to get worse. I had lost 8.4 pounds and then we found out we were pregnant. So cutting calories was no longer an option, but I did make an effort to make healthier choices. I gained a little under two pounds from October to December. After we found out about the miscarriage, I decided I needed to get back in the mind frame of losing weight. Being pregnant and as heavy as I was only caused anxiety for me that I would have complications later on. Next time around, I didn’t want to have so much fear about my weight causing problems in pregnancy. It’s really been a big motivation. I’ve also been drinking 6-10 glasses of water a day. (But typically not that much on the weekends.) I’ve found it to be pretty easy to do at work as long as I remember my water bottle. And I haven’t had a pimple in weeks.

I set up goals for myself. One big one and a few small ones.

  • Lose 10% of my weight in 12 weeks: I made it exactly, to the day.
  • Lose 25 pounds by my birthday (April 15): I made it, more than a month before that goal date.
  • Lose 30 pounds by Memorial Day: I’m well on my way for this one.
  • Lose 50 pounds by Christmas 09: Over halfway there.

I feel good. I haven’t bought clothes since September 08, so I don’t know how many sizes I’ve gone down. If I had to guess by the way my current clothes fit, maybe two sizes. My pants especially are pretty baggy. I’ve gotten creative with my ways of holding them up, since most of my dress pants don’t have belt loops. My shirts I could wear for a while before I look frumpy. The shirt I’m wearing today is a button-up. It used to pull really tight when I’d button one in the middle over a tank top. Today, I have two buttons buttoned and it looks pretty baggy. I could button them all, if I chose to wear the shirt like that, and it still wouldn’t pull. There are buttons on the sleeves and I’ve never been able to wear buttoned until today. A few weeks ago I was able to wear a sweater that had been too tight on me for months. It’s a good feeling.